Hitting The Wall...Old Habits Revisited

So, here we are, Day 53 and things are going well in the results department, but not so well in the motivation department.  If you recall from my previous post, I decided to add a week to phase 2 because of a "hit-or-miss" week last week.  That was a good idea...I imagine my body should feel like it needs to recover before I go into recovery week....3 days last week didn't do that.  This week, I made myself promise to stand firm and get through 1 week of hard work.  I was all pumped to do this when I went to bed Sunday night...then the alarm went off at 5:00 AM...I hit the snooze and instead of going back to sleep for 10 minutes, I stayed awake, considering reasons why I should take the day off and still get a good workout week in.  So...I fought the need to stay in bed and got up.  I wearily began my descent to the basement where I was all set up from the night before.  I sat on the couch to get dressed and took a minute to wake up a bit.  Well, the opposite happened and I lost my battle to exercise and went to sleep.  Feeling pretty annoyed that I gave up the battle for that day and slept, I let it weigh heavily on me all day long.  That night, I made the promise again.  Tuesday morning came and I, even though I felt the same way as Monday, did the workout.  When I was done, I felt great as I always do when I actually "press play".  I was back in it!  Wednesday morning...lost the battle again!  Today, won the battle and I have no intentions on losing the battle tomorrow or Saturday.

What you are reading is a window into my weight-loss past.  I push forward and am consumed completely...then, after a few months, I start to break down.  I make excuses and start to "drift away" from the current program of exercise or diet.  It's ever-so-gradual and I'm an expert at quitting when the routine starts to get monotonous.  This is where I am right now.  There are 2 things keeping me going:

1.  I WILL NOT stop this program because I have to keep blogging...it was a motivational goal for me and hopefully decent reading for anyone else interested.  If you notice, posts have been few and far between too...I think there's a positive correlation between the two!
2.  For me, it is a big deal for my kids to not have a lazy dad.  I have much more energy than I have in a long time.  I feel stronger, lighter, and faster.  This is how I want them to see me, not the lazy dad that I was before.

I think the big reason why this is getting tough for me is that it is a DVD workout in my basement while I am by myself.  I have no interaction with anyone except Tony who says the same stuff each time I do the workout.  I am at the point where I know what he's going to say.  That's not a bad thing, but it definitely is a contributing factor to the monotony.  I'm going to keep going.  Really!  I'm just in an exercising funk.  Each day I push myself to push play, I feel better after the workout.  For me, this is a critical time in my new life of fitness.  Assuming I will keep going, I will probably look back at this time as a "funky phase".  If I bail on the program, I can just expect things to go back to the old way.

I'm going to get up and I'm going to post more often.  I will reach my goal.  I'm going to finish out this week, do the recovery week and go full steam ahead into phase 3. 

OK...enough rambling...I'm going to bed....I'll post more in a day or so.  Take care!